“He answered, ‘The man they call Jesus made mud, smeared it on my eyes, and said, ‘Go to the pool of Siloam and wash.’ So I went and washed, and then I could see.’ …Here’s what I do know: I was blind and now I see.”
–John 9:11, 25
The Gospel scripture this past weekend in worship was the story of Jesus healing the man born blind by spitting on the ground, making mud and smearing it on the man’s eyes. Jesus did this to point to the power, presence and grace of God.
When we think about how we know God, everyone one of us has a window in our heart through which we can see God. Often it is as a child that this window is clear and our view of God is creative, crisp and clean. For some as we grow, that window through which we see God remains unbroken and clear. But that is usually the exception.
The more common reality is that our window through which we see God gets cracked and it’s hard to see. Sometimes the cracks get there simply over time and for others it’s pebbles of pain that crack the window. The pebble may be heart break or disappointment or illness or tragedy or grief. Whatever the pebble’s form, the result is usually the same, it becomes hard to see through a window that is not clear.
When our view of God gets hard to see through pain or hurt, our vision is hindered and we are not quite sure what we see. If you read the full Gospel story of the man born blind (John 9:1-41), you will notice that Jesus’ disciples and many others in the story were not sure what they saw as the man born blind regained his sight.
In the last couple of weeks of the Lenten season, may we look through the window of our own lives and see how clear our vision of God is. May we hold to the faith promise that Christ still sees through the cracks of our lives to grant sight, along with hope and new life so that we too may know, “I was blind, but now I see.”